| broken daydreams |

♪ listen ♪

delicate black lashes graze my fingertips as i turn
to capture the wonder in his star-studded eyes

“what do you feel?”

he breathes and i smile at his
curious little question

“tell me, please,” he sings a whisper
(does he want to feel it too?)

i wish i could tell you:

how it feels to be blinded
become one with the dream
that i cannot bear to touch right in front of me

how i hear the universe breathe
a wistful serenade
for you and i as we lie
beneath its velveteen skies

how i long for a taste of your soul
as the layers to your broken, bleeding heart unfurl
for me to touch
naked. bare. vulnerable

you.

“what do i feel?”

i am enchanted
by a Miracle

“nothing. nothing at all.”


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| come home, darling |

♪ listen ♪

i dream you are out there – some/where
floating in the ether
as lost as i but
towards me
you’d wander

we’d find each other by the tips of our
starkissed fingers
and the universe would shatter
the Gods would weep

i would touch your broken pieces
cut myself on the rough edges of your
pure, glimmering soul
i would bleed, my love
for you, i would

for if to have you, i must dream
dream i shall
enough to fill this wanting little heart
enough to hope
to see

you will return
you will come home to me
and i will wait

for our forever.

Under the Stars - Bodie Lighthouse


| revelation |

listen

you breathe
and i break
as i watch you weave magic in your careless, unfiltered way
that sinful mouth parts and out tumble your tales
and i wish that i could show you that
you’re more than your mistakes

you still can’t see, can you?
how i’m fighting to sit still
and not trace your imperfections
with the tips of my trembling lips.

you can’t see –
how i’m doing everything in my power
to not fall deeper into your laugh
or into the kindness in the pools of your chocolate eyes

you can’t see.
but: i do.

then one day
you turn with this catch in your breath
that stills my own heart
and you ask me, eyes wide,
“what does love look like?”
(i break a little more)
and shrug
“if only i knew”

oh, but i do, my darling:
it looks like you.

Para alcanzar lo que nunca has tenido, tendrás que hacer lo que nunca has hecho.
this is all i ask for.


A Sweet Scintillating Solitude 

When my friend casually asked me what plans I had for Valentine’s Day, I replied, “Netflix, minus the chill,” and we laughed. Hard. A majority of my friends are wonderfully single – reveling in the freedom that a lack of a relationship status gives us. I’m here to tell you that Valentine’s Day is just as much a celebration for us single peeps, as much as it is for the world’s abundance of couples.

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In India, teenagers entering a relationship is done so with careful scrutiny and as a result, Valentine’s Day isn’t as celebrated as I had expected it to be. My committed friends fear arousing the suspicions of their parents by going out on V-Day which is a normal precaution in an Indian context. It’s a striking contrast to what I experienced in England – where I’ve seen parents encourage their teenage kids to go out with their respective partners. But I’m not here to discuss cultural differences. At least, not today.

For starters, I personally believe that in the old days, Valentine’s Day stood for something. Now, it’s merely an opportunity for the exploitation of mass consumers by profit-thirsty businesses that are just waiting to pounce. That could be the influence of my business degree acting up but, think about how commercial it’s become. Even if I were in a relationship, I wouldn’t want my boyfriend to feel obligated to buy me anything or do anything on Valentine’s Day. Even then, it’s just like any other day because if I were truly in love, every day would be Valentine’s Day.

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Best Valentine’s Day card ever.

But considering the fact that I’m happily single (it’s not a myth), I’m here to tell you that it’s absolutely okay to not be all about the romance today, or any other day for the matter. Here’s why:

  • You’re single and you’re awesome. Cheesy as hell, I know, but true. You don’t need a relationship to validate your self-worth. You don’t need a date on the supposedly most romantic day of the year to feel special. Learn to love yourself – take that figuratively or literally, whichever is fine as long as you’re happy.

    'Too pricey? Perhaps you wish to see something in macaroni and spray paint?'

  • V-Day Savings – Keeping the big-bad-businesses and corporate culture I mentioned before in mind, if you’re single and on a budget, you would end up saving a huge chunk of your pocket money. You can spend it on food instead. Need I say more?
  • Flirting galore – not that I’m an expert on this topic but remember, you’re not the only single one on the planet today. All of us are looking to have a little flirty-fun, even more so on the 14th of February. Whether it’s casual or all about the play, enjoy your singlehood!
  • ‘Gal’entine’s Day – All the single ladies, put your hands up cause this one’s for you. My girlfriends coined this term today as we finished college and strode out like the total single bosses we are. Why focus on your partners today when you can share the love with your girlfriends? After all, they’ve been there for you through thick and thin, through your singlehood and relationships too. Make it all about the squad.

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  • Candy Hog – No bae, means no sharing. Which fortunately for you means you can hog the Valentine’s Day candies on sale all for yourself.
  • You’re your own BOSS – There’s no stress to buy presents and make today perfect for your significant other. You can do whatever the hell you want because you are the ruler of your universe. Sleep, game, binge-watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S or do literally anything else you want. It’s up to you.

That, my fellow single-buds, is why today rocks.

Embrace the solitude. Feel the freedom. Dance naked around a tree. Empower yourselves. (Something’s out of sorts here).

Just…be your own Valentine and everything else about today will come secondary to how amazing you really are.